Dear Readers, I have been away now for quite some time. It is even harder now to find time to write and then take into account all of the efforts it takes to figure out what to write about, it is so time-consuming. And I do not find myself with a surplus of time these days. A few months ago, I received a phone call from my mother, that she could no longer take care of my grandmother. I have been doing my best to care for her, on top of trying to work things out with my failing marriage, parent two children and work full time. I don't want another thing to swallow up my precious time, but something I can come as I please and write about whatever is on my mind. I do need that, on nights like this when I just can't seem to shut my eyes and drift off to sleep. My mind is working too much, too fast, it's on overload and I just needed to talk, to write and its okay if no one listens, because this is really just for my sanity. I need some sort of release in my life. I am up at 5